I wish there was a way to act out on all the rage from this past year so that I could start over.
Somewhere along the road, I’ve lost a quality that I have grown up needing. I’ve lost my ability to forgive. It may have come from the exes who have repeatedly hurt me. It may have come from distrust of family. It may have come from my eyes finally being opened to all the disappointment that the world has to offer.
I used to be a happy person, a somewhat naive person, and a trusting person. So why is it that now, when greater life experiences require more forgiveness, I find I’ve run out.
I woke up this morning with my boyfriend sleeping next to me and a kitten sleeping on my head. That’s a pretty good way to wake up. :)
Today and yesterday were good days. :) productive and in a good mood, even if I almost dosed off a couple of times. But honestly, that’s all I can really ask for right now; for today to be good and for tomorrow to be good too.
Even in the most peaceful surroundings the angry heart finds a quarrel. Even in the most quarrelsome surroundings the grateful heart finds peace.
A comfort zone is a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there.
You have to learn to say no without feeling guilty. Setting boundaries is healthy. You need to learn to respect and take care of yourself.
That’s what careless words do. They make people love you a little less.
Fall Semester is starting next week, and I just realized that I finally get to wear that watch that I bought when I was home to work. I finally get to dress up again and not worry about getting attacked or scratched.
It’s the little things, right? :)
1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12 Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror;then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.